Anyone who has followed my writing about the law of attraction (that we bring about what we think about) knows that I don’t believe in accidents. To me, this universe functions in an orderly manner: summer follows spring not once in a while, but always; and fall surely precedes winter each and every year. When planted at the right time, in the right place, a corn seed will grow into a corn plant–not a pea plant. On the human level, I believe that spiritual laws also apply: our habitual thoughts form beliefs which lead to actions and results that we witness in our lives.
With regard to the apparent events that we experience, a revelation recently occurred to me. It was as though an epiphanic star blazed across my awareness and, by its trailing light, revealed a hidden belief that had been buried deep within my subconscious mind. There “it” was: the reason. We can learn what is contained within us by examining the repetitive patterns we experience; but to do so, we must be aware and pay attention.
The background: On a Wednesday in May, 1974, when I was sixteen, I returned home from high school and immediately heard my mom anxiously call to me from my parents’ bedroom upstairs. She thought that my father, who was lying in bed, might have had a heart attack. That was how the horror of that afternoon began. At about 10 p.m. on the Saturday of that same week, my father’s dead body was being removed from our house. In a grief-stricken blur, you soon find yourself standing with your sisters and mother in a funeral home, selecting a casket. How can that be?
Any memories of what I was feeling at that age will be tainted, as all memories are notoriously imperfect. I can, however, do my best to recall. As a shy teenager, who was unaware of the ways of the world, I might have quite naturally assumed that life would be hard without my father; that there would be challenges to deal with, made worse by my adolescent fears. Without him, how would you learn how to be a man? How would you know how to perform the tasks and maintenance that he used to perform? Without his guidance, how would you find your way?
Has my life offered results of that belief? Yes. Of course, I realize that in hindsight we can draw faulty conclusions and build a case to fit the effects that show up in our life; but I also realize that to ignore our intuitive understanding is unwise. I have long believed that to experience different results we must be willing to change; and with that logic, I have applied the principle of the following ancient hermetic axiom for many years:
“As within, so without.”
The epiphany that shot through my awareness is this: I did, in fact, believe that “life is going to be hard without dad.” The tears which came, in a sudden and unexpected release of emotion, seemed proof. That they came, however, is actually good; because it means that I’m letting go of a belief that was formed by an adolescent mind. It’s time to feel that belief in its entirety and replace it with a better one. I, thus, deliberately choose the following:
Today, I live fully, completely, joyously. I am Life, itself.
I choose–NOW–to embrace this moment and live with ease and grace.
Dear Readers: If you have been experiencing undesirable patterns in your life, I encourage you to dive deep into your beliefs and examine them for validity. Are they true? Do they serve you? If not, you can consciously replace them with ones that produce better results.
Dare to Dream (and care for one another).
With heartfelt regards,
Copyright © – 2022 – R. Arthur Russell
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6 thoughts on “An Epiphanic Star”
Thank you for sharing, Art. This is a beautiful and powerful piece…and this touched me, “The tears which came, in a sudden and unexpected release of emotion, seemed proof. That they came, however, is actually good…”
So sorry for the sudden loss your family experienced. ❤
You’re very welcome, Victoria. Thank you for your kind comment. It’s all good; and it’s wonderful now to be able to process the event from a perspective of truth.
Wishing you and your family a wonderful holiday season! 🙏
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Empowering thoughts born from great tragedy. Reshaped through wisdom and awareness. ✨
Thank you, Michele. 🙏
My dad died when I was two years old, too young to understand the ramifications of such a loss. I have often wondered how life might have been different had he lived. Your touching story brings up questions to which there are no answers, yet is a wonderful reminder that we are who we create ourselves to be, and that we have a choice about whether we allow outer circumstances to dictate our “being-ness”. Oh my. So much to ponder! Thank you Art.
Thank you for sharing some personal details related to the loss of your father when you were only two. Yes, I wonder how different life might have been had he lived. I, too, believe that we have chosen/created these circumstances for the opportunity for growth.
I remember a life changing event for me, regarding this very topic. I was visiting a hypnotist; the topic of my father’s passing arose. She stated that my father had died at precisely the right moment. That was eye opening, and I agree! For years, I had heard, “Your father died too young.” Who are we to decide? This way of accepting life feels right to me–leaving egoic opinions out of the issues.
Thank you for taking the time to comment. I like learning from you.
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